Late in the evening

In the evening....when the day is done....

Great song when Iam thinking of doing some dancing in socks. However, this is not the reason sleep has left me at 2:36 in the morning. As I lay here, Patrick is sleeping enjoying the numbness that is associated with sleep. Not the gnawing insomnia, no my friends that is my problem. The tricky part of loving someone is having to balance their needs and your desires. Which in my book is easier than sharing money with strangers.

A place for my head.....

Sorry, play list changed songs, welcome to rage and distortion.. you try to the best of me ..go away..you take the best..and yes he does. For it is the best of me that Patrick loves.. the devotion, simple minded joy, and not to mention shinny @#$$%$O%^& personality. L33t .

Do you have what it takes?

what the problem , it is all in my head and my head is driving me nuts with all of it whisperings of doubt about us and him. Again, my heart is yelling over my head trying to make understand that all is right with the world. Being in love is the most powerful force in my life and the lack there of should be manifested in all that I do. In short though they both agree that I am not happy.

The well is full and the rain has not stopped...

as we walk in fields of gold and I let his hand go and realize how much I have to do alone for I can never stay still or burn away silently. Many years have passed since I stopped and lived and not ran with the wind. Again I know that he will not wait for me. Won't know really until I ask. However, asking means leaving him and blowing in the wind spent like water on the hills. Lonely.